Since this was my senior year at school, I've had the privilege to finish school earlier than everyone else in school and, relatively, the world.
I've been on summer vacation for almost two months now! And I'm gonna be honest with you, I have achieved around 11% of what I intended to achieve. I even had a list and all. Had I been home, I would have attached a photo of the list, but I am not. So here's a sample of what was on it:
From this sample, I can tick two off. I did paint once!
I tried doing some miniature dresses, which miserably failed. But that's okay, the fact I tried was what counted the most to me (especially since I had spent around 2 weeks just in bed watching Parks and Rec).
I also went to a new place, which was I ice skated. And I would like to take a moment to describe my experience.
I went with six other friends, who were my 'squad' during the last two years of high school. I hesitated a million times before agreeing to do it, since my last ice skating experience was traumatising (I fell on my butt and hurt for a year). I clutched to the railing for dear life for a good 20 minutes (we booked 3 hours cause what else would you do when you're going to skate in an Olympic sized ice rink?) while everyone else ditched me. Then one of my friends decided he had to teach me. And one humiliating crash, thousand ear-piercing screams and a million judgemental looks later, I could fairly skate well hand in hand with someone else and I could cross the whole rink on my own!
Skating was actually super fun and I plan on going back a lot more times and sharpen my merely existing skating skill. I usually love trying new activities and I am so glad I decided to push aside my fear of falling and humiliation and just enjoyed myself. This is something I constantly suffer with, the fear of public humiliation and I definitely think I'm not alone. Trying this new activity was exhilarating and I just focused on myself and my friends which all what counted at that moment.
This is a photo of our legs (!) at the heart of the ice rink. Good times.
Anyway, if you struggle with the fear of embarrassing yourself in public, trying new activities out of your comfort zone and/or failure, surround yourself by the people closest to you, find an activity you have been dying to try out and I guarantee you'll be having the time of your life. And I feel summer is the perfect time to do so because it is when people are genuinely freer.
I am also learning so much more about my identity and self. I'm educating myself and widening my horizons on things schools won't teach us. I've been discovering new artists and
Now onto some of the other things I couldn't accomplish...
Between travelling, procrastinating, going out, watching TV shows and movies, and much more, I found myself held back from doing a couple of things. I am especially disappointed in myself for my lack of ability to make time for reading this summer. Even during most stressful times at school, I was able to read more. I can justify it by saying that now I am doing things I couldn't necessarily do during school, but it is just not a good enough reason for me since reading is something I cherish so deeply and not in anyway want to fall behind on. I am still working on it, but I know I will be held back even more as I do some more travelling (which, though off topic, I am really excited to blog about!). I also didn't make time for swimming, though I still hope the chance hasn't passed, and learning guitar. But maybe I'll leave learning to play the instrument to winter –sigh, procrastination–.
This post was more or less a take of my summer so far and a comparison between how my expectation was to reality. And it was to discuss with you if we actually do as much as we imagine we will do in summer!
I'm genuinely satisfied and happy with how it went, especially with trying new things, discovering myself better, getting into the university I wanted to get into and doing the major I want to (upcoming post!), seeing my family, and so much more that is still to come. Though I am more of a winter person, I am working on making this the most memorable summer because I have just graduated a long journey of school, I'm moving onto a new chapter of my life and all that cheesiness. This is the last summer I won't be considered an adult, and I want to make every second count.
Also, no matter your age, and if it is summer where you live, go enjoy it! Do what you want and give yourself a reason to have the summer you want to tell your kids about someday. Go on pintrest, Youtube, tumblr, weheartit, instagram. Look for ideas and actually do them! As annoying as this may sound, it doesn't matter how much or how little you have, you can always find something to do just give yourself the motivation and initiative.
How has your summer been going? Do you have any plans? Do you set expectations for your summer or do you just go with it? I have loads of upcoming plans and this is the first time I actually set goals and stick to it so I am quite excited!
See you next post where I will be talking about university, majors and beyond, contrary to this chill one!
Till next time,
Farah x
I've been on summer vacation for almost two months now! And I'm gonna be honest with you, I have achieved around 11% of what I intended to achieve. I even had a list and all. Had I been home, I would have attached a photo of the list, but I am not. So here's a sample of what was on it:
- Start learning to play guitar
- Paint
- Read even more
- Go to new places
- Swim
- Start a blog
From this sample, I can tick two off. I did paint once!
I tried doing some miniature dresses, which miserably failed. But that's okay, the fact I tried was what counted the most to me (especially since I had spent around 2 weeks just in bed watching Parks and Rec).
I also went to a new place, which was I ice skated. And I would like to take a moment to describe my experience.
I went with six other friends, who were my 'squad' during the last two years of high school. I hesitated a million times before agreeing to do it, since my last ice skating experience was traumatising (I fell on my butt and hurt for a year). I clutched to the railing for dear life for a good 20 minutes (we booked 3 hours cause what else would you do when you're going to skate in an Olympic sized ice rink?) while everyone else ditched me. Then one of my friends decided he had to teach me. And one humiliating crash, thousand ear-piercing screams and a million judgemental looks later, I could fairly skate well hand in hand with someone else and I could cross the whole rink on my own!
Skating was actually super fun and I plan on going back a lot more times and sharpen my merely existing skating skill. I usually love trying new activities and I am so glad I decided to push aside my fear of falling and humiliation and just enjoyed myself. This is something I constantly suffer with, the fear of public humiliation and I definitely think I'm not alone. Trying this new activity was exhilarating and I just focused on myself and my friends which all what counted at that moment.
This is a photo of our legs (!) at the heart of the ice rink. Good times.
Anyway, if you struggle with the fear of embarrassing yourself in public, trying new activities out of your comfort zone and/or failure, surround yourself by the people closest to you, find an activity you have been dying to try out and I guarantee you'll be having the time of your life. And I feel summer is the perfect time to do so because it is when people are genuinely freer.
I am also learning so much more about my identity and self. I'm educating myself and widening my horizons on things schools won't teach us. I've been discovering new artists and
Now onto some of the other things I couldn't accomplish...
Between travelling, procrastinating, going out, watching TV shows and movies, and much more, I found myself held back from doing a couple of things. I am especially disappointed in myself for my lack of ability to make time for reading this summer. Even during most stressful times at school, I was able to read more. I can justify it by saying that now I am doing things I couldn't necessarily do during school, but it is just not a good enough reason for me since reading is something I cherish so deeply and not in anyway want to fall behind on. I am still working on it, but I know I will be held back even more as I do some more travelling (which, though off topic, I am really excited to blog about!). I also didn't make time for swimming, though I still hope the chance hasn't passed, and learning guitar. But maybe I'll leave learning to play the instrument to winter –sigh, procrastination–.
This post was more or less a take of my summer so far and a comparison between how my expectation was to reality. And it was to discuss with you if we actually do as much as we imagine we will do in summer!
I'm genuinely satisfied and happy with how it went, especially with trying new things, discovering myself better, getting into the university I wanted to get into and doing the major I want to (upcoming post!), seeing my family, and so much more that is still to come. Though I am more of a winter person, I am working on making this the most memorable summer because I have just graduated a long journey of school, I'm moving onto a new chapter of my life and all that cheesiness. This is the last summer I won't be considered an adult, and I want to make every second count.
Also, no matter your age, and if it is summer where you live, go enjoy it! Do what you want and give yourself a reason to have the summer you want to tell your kids about someday. Go on pintrest, Youtube, tumblr, weheartit, instagram. Look for ideas and actually do them! As annoying as this may sound, it doesn't matter how much or how little you have, you can always find something to do just give yourself the motivation and initiative.
How has your summer been going? Do you have any plans? Do you set expectations for your summer or do you just go with it? I have loads of upcoming plans and this is the first time I actually set goals and stick to it so I am quite excited!
See you next post where I will be talking about university, majors and beyond, contrary to this chill one!
Till next time,
Farah x
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